A Change of Direction

It seems so surreal. I had every intention of walking into the Division Chair’s office and laying it on the line that I am scared. I’m terrified in this shifting economy where teachers are being let go and no one is being hired. So what do you do?

I knew immediately that I needed to make myself more marketable. I’m not an idiot. I’m a person who has been around and I have a lot of experience under my belt. I know what sells and how to sell myself. I knew that to compete in such a tough market, I needed an edge.

What a Week So Far!

Okay, here goes my weekly recap so far and only because I’m really needing a break from paper writing!  So, logically (of course!), I’m taking a break from writing to write.  Don’t ask, because it makes perfect sense to me and besides, I truly need to empty the mush from my brain before it… well, we won’t go quite that far.

This has definitely been a wild week!  And to think, it is only Wednesday!  So that means that I still have three more days before it is over and I’m wondering exactly what is going to happen by then.

Let’s give a little bit of background first shall we?  How about we start with last Friday, as this is a very important day?

Your Greatest Work

How do you determine exactly what your greatest work will be?  Who decides that it is the greatest?

Well, let me just say that the professor who urges me on to attend graduate school is the same professor who suggested that I read and write a critical paper on the book by Zora Neale Hurston, Their Eyes Were Watching God.  His constant motivation in class to us all has been

Of Thee I Sing

It’s nice at times to have someone sing your praises.  When someone is singing your praises, it makes you feel important… special…kind of warm and fuzzy on the inside.  Yes.  It is nice to have people sing your praises.

Except, it is inappropriate when

Profound Observations

I realize that it has been awhile since I made a post.  I can hardly believe that I’m so out of practice.  This summer I seemed to have so much to say, but lately, I have much to say, but no time to say it.

My life is busy.  Simple as that, I am busy and I have no time for anything anymore.  Life becomes a myriad of moments that blend into a motley collage of life experiences and lessons.

Of course, lately, it has become a time of discovery and profound observations.

Observation #1:

A Conversation of Just One

Perhaps I have started a very bad habit over the summer while school was out.  This habit does not include my recent exercising and dieting.  No, instead it is one that you do not want to have when you are sitting amongst others.  It is

So much to do, and so little time

I can hardly believe that another semester has come and gone by (or is about to go by).  I spoke with one of my professors earlier this week and I when the words came out of my mouth, I could hardly believe I had been the one speaking them.  I only have 2 more semesters until I do my Pre-Clinical and after that comes Clinical and graduation!  It seems rather surreal to be speaking of graduating college, something that I have put off for nearly 20 years!  But I suppose that the Lord knows when the timing is right, and I do not.  I needed to first mature before He could properly use me and I needed to put my priorities into order.  I told my professor that I have a very important decision to make and I need to pray about these next two semesters.  For myself, do I take the easy route and complete my Clinical at the school I would love to work at and where I know everyone?  Or, do I go to the school that is in the greatest need for teachers who care and can mentor students who NEED the support of a caring adult?  I wanted to teach because I want to make a difference.  But who needs me the most?

In the meantime, I know that my chances for making the Dean’s List this semester are long gone.  I opted to not stress the small stuff and to do my best without placing so much on myself.   I hated doing that to myself last semester, especially after working so hard to maintain a 3.5 gpa across the board only to have it dashed by a group project where we received a poor grade.  That alone brought my gpa down to 3.4562, and you need a 3.5 to make the list.  They don’t round up!  Imagine, missing by .0038.  It’s just sad.

Speaking of group projects, I have mine due on Tuesday.  I have yet to finish my part of the assignment.  I thought at first that the assignment would be easy, but the more I learn, the more complicated it became.  How hard could it be to try and replicate the garments worn my Henry VIII and Anne Boleyn?  VERY!  So I’m hoping to get those finished up by the end of the weekend.

On top of that, I’m trying to finish writing my paper on the etymology of daisy.  I have no clue where to start and I’ve changed my outline 4 different times.  It was due last Friday.  I will be lucky to have it completed by tomorrow.  Plus the professor sent out our final chapter test.  No regular test this time.  Instead we have 5 difficult questions to answer, whereby we will analyze the language changes in the passages provided, comparing the differences between grammar construction of the Early Modern English to that of the Modern English today.  Did I mention I haven’t been in school for the last 20 years and grammar has since flown out of my brain?

Well, I need to finish up all these projects.  Until Later…..