Lately I have felt confused… unloved… worthless…

I’m not really sure what happened. As for the unloved… I thought I had found something that was beyond wonderful. What you learn in retrospect is that it is an ugly truth. It was a lie that never was.

Worthless because the world makes me feel that way.

Confused and lost devoid of direction.

I have cried so much these past few weeks, and I have felt so emotional, but I realize that there is no purpose for the tears.

I graduated Thursday, December 8th, 2011. It should be an amazing moment in my life, right? But why do I feel this way? Why does it seem as though everything is falling apart? Why does it feel as though I have no destiny?

Lord, when are you going to illuminate my path?

(to be continued…..)

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